Heaven and Hell

I feel heaven

I am hell

I am the lost one

the cold and soulless one

cause I  know it better

but can´t change it at last

I will fall down

I will scream out

this hate

and endless pain

I can´t find it

this feeling is for real

and I can´t hide it

I´m scared for what is haunting me

Nightmares call me

and I am searching you

but all I can see

is this dark and cold endlessness

But how can I love you

when inside it is cold?

My soul is like frozen

my skin is so cold

my heart burns like fire

but inside I turn to stone

How can I find you

when I am only lost?

I am the lost one

the scared one

I should know it better

but all I can do is loose

I should know

I should go

but all I see

is scaring me

and make me believe

that there´s no help for me.

We feel heaven

We are hell

We are the lost ones

the cold and soulless ones

cause we know it better

but can´t change it at last